Wednesday, June 1, 2011

My Place In Joplin, Missouri

OK, this has been the coolest Spring in many years--at least from what the locals have told me. Like many Americans, I have to say my lawn looks really green this year. I've done the weed & feed thing and now I can sit back and enjoy it, right?

Last Sunday evening, May 22 to be exact, the city where I lived with my wife for 12 years, Joplin, Missouri, was hit by an F5 tornado. It was one of the worst twisters ever recorded. Nearly two hundred dead, many more are still reported missing. 30-40% of the city is simply gone. I'm very sad.

I grew up about twenty minutes south of there in the small town of Neosho. There are around 10,000 living and that number hasn't really changed for years. We moved there in 1973 from Modesto, California. We moved there just before another twister ravaged the town in the Spring. I remember the sounds vividly. I sat with my mom and dad and baby brother along with an aunt and uncle and cousins in a basement garage inside a station wagon. It doesn't haunt me, per se, but I still remember it vividly--we had a very old oak tree absolutely plucked up by its roots and tossed over like a child's toy. We moved to Montana not too long after that. That's another story. I moved to Joplin after my wife and I were married. As I told some others, you my leave Joplin, but Joplin never leaves you.

The night after the storm we frantically tried getting hold of our friends, looking at Facebook--anything we could do to make sure that they were all right. All the time we kept looking at images of our destroyed neighborhood. One family that we are very close to, in fact they had just left our lovely state a week before, survived the storm inside a closet while their home just blew away. Another friend--single mother--barely made it to the bottom floor of her apartment building before it was whisked away by that hammer from the sky. And yet another family's son was at Home Depot when the storm smashed into it. They're all alive, thank God.

We lived a few blocks north east of St. John's hospital. In fact if you were to go onto Google Earth you can still see the truck I owned at the time that someone surreptitiously took a picture of our home--that freaks me out, too. But that is another story in itself.

If it helps put perspective on how these catastrophes can shape us, I really wanted to share about our neighborhood. We lived on 22nd and Moffett, right on the corner. We had three beautiful magnolia trees in our front yard. My wife gave birth to two of our children there. I watched my oldest daughter move from infancy to a lovely young girl.

Down the block we had other good friends that we would visit on occasion. We met because the wife had crashed into our car on a winter night while turning a corner. That too is another story. Further down the block was another special place, but not in the way that you might think (not that I know what you are thinking). This was a transformational place. It was a community-based residential care facility or CBRF. The name of the place was GreenBriar. They housed people who needed help living. There were those who were either sickly, at the onset of Alzheimer's, dimensia, or put there because they had no family or their family couldn't care for their needs any more.

Every Wednesday, about one year before we moved to Wisconsin, we began visiting some of the residents. We did that as the result of some talks at our local church. We wanted to serve and love people and this was an opportunity close to our home. There were two men that I visited--funny I can't remember their names right now. One of them was a bomber pilot during WWII. He described his experience on those B-29s like this: "hours of absolute boredom punctuated by moments of sheer terror." Another was a lonely man who longed for the day when he would return to his home in Carl Junction. He was a simple man--stereotypically Missourian (I are one). One had family who visited some; the other had family but felt abandoned by them.

I made boxes out of fine wood for them. I made paintings for them. I talked to them. I did what I could. I loved them with the little I had. I told them about Jesus. I told them what I understood about God at the time (they didn't know of course that God was taking me to school). They in turn, changed me. Life had dramatically affected them. Their loneliness and my weakness met and we communed with God together. That was several years ago now. I know that the WWII pilot died--his name was Bob, I remember now. The other man, I'm not sure. I inexcusably lost touch during our move (horrible part of a selfish heart). Now I'll probably never know. You see, the tornado completely destroyed GreenBriar.

When my wife and I looked at the pictures we were incredulous. We couldn't grasp the magnitude of the destruction. We didn't fully understood that the Joplin that we knew had simply vanished. So I grieve. I grieve at the loss of life, of memories that will fade over time, of the brief time that we spent there (our life is so short). But I am also learning to be thankful. We did have time there. We did touch lives and others profoundly changed ours. We will go back, not in a Douglas MacArthur fashion. I have skill in the trades. I've built homes before. I can do that stuff. We would go with our memories and try to help rebuild in some fashion our city.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Cabin Fever, 2011

The snow has been on the ground a long time. It's going to be gone by this weekend, though. And I now have cabin fever really bad. Lake Michigan is looking bluer and bluer. I'm like an animal in heat. I'm daydreaming about my flyrod, for crying out loud. If you've not fly-fished you have no idea to what I'm referring. Of course you could never find one of us fly-fishers around, because we're usually in our garage or basement fingering our gear, longing for some modest warm-up, or bent over our tying desks dreaming up new concoctions that we're sure will beguile even the most wily salmonid.

A question: I wonder how many really odd fly recipes there are that tyers have tied during the doldrums of winter? I think that I've probably tied, in my lifetime, about 20 original creations that sank right to the bottom immediately. Not because there was any weight on the shank. No, the fly was embarrassed at being created. I've got this monstrosity in my box. Imagine, a long-shank hook, olive chenille, palmered grizzly hackle, two huge goggle eyes, and a mustache. I keep it in there for desperate days.... Or to remember what I can become. Thank God I'm building a guitar, now.

Guitars and Missions

I've got this picture in my mind. Guitars and Missionaries. Synonymous? Maybe. The guitar, in my opinion, is a thing of natural beauty. Finely crafted, played with skillful hands, it projects something heavenly.

Missionaries are like that, especially those who forsake the comforts of this life--saying, no extra clothes, no i-pad, i-phone, i-whatever; taking only what could be put into a suitcase and go live life in another completely different culture to share a message of hope and love and salvation. So, missionaries (like my friends), are a lot like that guitar--a finely crafted instrument playing the sweet strains of another world for another world to hear. To my friends, I say, "Thank you. I can hear what you are playing and thank you for being willing to be played--sometimes to an unappreciative audience--to sacrifice, to love others. That's what love does."

This give me pause. How am I being played?

Friday, February 11, 2011

'37 Hauser

My winter project is to build a classical guitar for a friend. I have all the wood and am about to start making the forms and molds, various jigs and such--all the foofaraw that seems to go along with any sort of hobby that I undertake. Why can't I pick a seemingly innocuous hobby like stamp collecting, bird watching, or empire building? I fly-fish. Lots of gadgets there. Have you seen the vest of the average fly-fisherman, lately? Knot tiers. Fly dope to make your fly sink or float. Fly boxes. Forceps. Extra fly-line spools. Fly patch. Multitools. Hook removers. That's just in the top two pockets. At last count, I think I found 23 pockets for all of my stuff and I still need more.

Building a modern guitar is just as bad. You have the plantilla, the workboard, go-bar clamps, side-bending jig, circle-cutting jig, purfling jig, fretboard-slotting jig, fretboard template (in both metric and imperial), about 400 clamps (which will still not be enough), countless planes and chisels, not to mention trying to decide on the type tuning machines to use...I love it!

So for the next few months I'll be posting some pictures and describing the process (mistakes included) of what it takes to build a guitar in my basement here in Wisconsin.

Just a teaser:
Soundboard: German Spruce
Backs and Sides: East Indian rosewood
Neck: Spanish cedar
650mm scale length
Plans: Hauser '37--one of Segovia's favs.

Can't wait to see how it turns out.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Of Molinism and Compatibilism

I realized that I haven't posted for a long time. A lot has happened. I've a job. Not necessarily a career change, but it provides for what we need as a family. My youngest son is now 15 months old, communicating more and more, forming some beginnings of sentences (at least in his mind), pointing out objects, and saying "Wow!" as we look at the mountains of snow in our Wisconsin front yard. And as winters are very long here I have to confess that I have been doing a lot of reading--not a lot of thinking to process what I'm reading--just a lot of reading.

Short list?
Eusebius, a biography of Wycliffe, Calvin's institutes, and The Works of Jacobus Arminius. Perhaps the diet of seminary students but I think I want to be one someday. As I've continued reading I've had the beginnings of discussions with some friends over some coffee and I've been thinking that Christianity has within it its own spectrum of thought. On one side you have yer Calvinists and on t'other you got yer Arminians and right smack dab in the middle of both of them--almost as if they're trying to somehow meet and be somewhat in one mind and harmonious--you have these ideas of Compatibilism (soft-determinism) and Molinism (soft-something--I'm not sure what). Of course I'm in danger of oversimplification and going to incur the wrath of both camps. Nevertheless, the nuances that exist are remarkable. Both seek to reconcile the paradoxes of Scripture. I'm not even close to being able to figure them out. In fact, I think it's more confusing.

Oh well...

Monday, December 28, 2009

Open Source What?

The internet is an amazing entity. I've always had interests in the fine arts and not having a steady job has given me some time (in between looking for jobs) to check out some of the graphics packages that are available for free. You know what they say. TANSTAAFL. Well, the best things in life are free. Some cool software packages for 3D arts and such.

Blender: a cool 3D graphics/game creator. Open source. Free. Cool community.

gMax: another cool 3D graphics generator. There are tons of tutorials available.

Caligari: this was some software I used way back when I had an Amiga 4000. The environment is cool and pretty intuitive and it's free. I especially like the free-form modeling tools. v. 7.6 is the version I use right now.

Daz Studio: 3D Modeling software. Neat stuff. Some of it risky. Great for creating fantasy worlds.

GIMP: cool image manipulation program, sans the expensive Autodesk nametag. Neat painting tools. Fast. Also open source and free.

Thought you might like to know. The internet rocks!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009




Been some time...

The long days of winter doldrums are returning. My mother-in -law just flew back to Missoula. Snow has been falling since she left. She had hoped to don our snowshoes and trek through some winterscapes locally. I'm still underemployed, seeking to change careers. Oh yeah, we also had our 4th child. His name is Ian.

I've also picked up my paintbrushes again. It has been some time. I didn't realize how much I missed splashing paint and being creative. I've been looking at a lot of pastel and watercolorist websites in the hopes of entering some juried competitions. There are a lot of artists out there and they all think that a presence on the web is the next move for them to get recognized--or at least that's what I think they're thinking. Seems like we all get taken in in our quest for some magic bullet to solve all of our problems.

What is art, really? I have visited some sites and I wonder out loud why no one will honestly critique what some people pass off as art. Wussy art maybe. It's that touchy-feely PC tripe that doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings about anything. Not even, "What exactly where you trying to say with that?"

Well, here's my attempt at fame.... And remember, I'm unique just like everyone else.